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Terrible news…

I feel so dead inside… which is completely ridiculous.

I hate everything.

Ok well… I got a text from Todd this morning and he’s all “I’m gonna ask sarah on a date!”

Why the HELL would he tell me that? After everything he’s said to me. Pig.

Pig!! PIG, PIG, PIG!!!

What am I even supposed to SAY to that?!? Does he really expect me to throw him a bloody party? What?

So my response was “oh……. That’s cool.” Lame I know, but I don’t want… him to know… HOW MUCH OF AN ASS HE IS JUST YET!!!

This really hurts. It shouldn’t. He shouldn’t have said that shit if he didn’t mean it. I shouldn’t have bought it.

On the plus side I can finally start going to bed at a decent hour….

*CRY*CRY*CRY*CRY*CRY*CRY*CRY*CRY*

At least I’m glad he didn’t tell me before pizazz. I would have sung like complete crap.

Pizazz went pretty good.

I want to talk to him so much right now… but not on the phone. WHICH REMINDS ME OF YESTERDAY.

AND I QUOTE: {me first}

“Did I catch you in the middle of something?”

“No I just wanted to call you and say hi coz I missed you.”

“Yeah I know we haven’t talked in forever.”

{And by forever I mean a week. Almost}

“How late will you be up?”

{He wants more of our amazing conversations}

“I’m not going to be home till late, call me tomorrow”

“Mmmmmm I”ll call you later on tonight.”

{And he did. But luckily I missed the call and I didn’t call him back.}

Why would anyone do that to me? I have never done anything to deserve this. I have THE WORST luck when it comes to guys. THE ABSOLUTE WORST.

Ok I’m done.

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