I may look young, but your game is pre-pubescent

ahh I just added the new blogger gadget for iGoogle. Say hello to shorter, more frequent blog posts? Mmmaaaaaayyyybe...

So I'm vingt now. The thought of not being a teenager anymore has me pretty paranoid. Not gonna lie. But I'm sort of starting to like how oddly sophisticated I feel now. "Ooh, I'm not just nineTEEN anymore... I'M TWENTY BITCHES!!"

hahaha. Or not.

Pretty good birthday overall I'd say. Work was ok, the general harassment by the VM boys, five free dented cans of veggie meat, the usual. Mum sent me flowers and a TON of balloons. Pretty ridiculous. But funny. I had to go to choir practice in the pouring down rain, so I was pretty well drenched by the time I got to the church. NAAAAsty. And of course I stood right behind Michael the whole time. I really wish I could calm the frick down about him. I had a really good view of Ryan, the audacious cymbal player. Hilarious. Then at the end of rehearsal, the entire choir sang Happy Birthday to me, which was a really intense experience. Then I got back to the room and there was a surprise party for me! With papa john's and candy corn. WooT. Sarah M and Laura showed up too, so it was pretty cool.

THEN....

I had made plans to go to vespers with Donnie (as my birthday present from him.... coz he gambles and has no money.) and it was getting near time to go and I hadn't heard from him, so I im'ed him and he's like "oh I'm here I'm here." It was casual dress for this vespers so he's like "do you want me to dress up?" And I'm like "naah don't bother" (but I was going to anyway coz it was kind of a way that I could feel less bad about making him go to vespers... yea idk) So it was time to go and I im'ed him and he didn't say anything back so I just said "I'll be in the lobby, call me." So I waited in the lobby until about five minutes before vespers and he still didn't show, so I just headed over. I was pretty pissed but tried to console myself with the thought that I'd probably be the best dressed person there. Lame, I know.

So I got there and started getting really antsy and sleepy and a touch depressed, so I started to leave and on my way out there's this guy walking towards me in vespers clothes and I thought to myself "Someone didn't get the memo" and it was Donnie. DRESSED UP! I guess he got locked out of his room so that made him late and then he went to the girl's dorm and the desk lady is like "oooh she's gonna be MAAAD." which I thought was hilarious. I was glad he showed up though. Seriously, it was like a movie the way I walked out at the exact right time.

I reallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreally hope he's not just patronizing me. I hope he's not for his sake. Coz I may just go ape crap on his ass if he is. hahah I can't beleive those words came out of my fingers.

But seriously... I will.

the city will be earth in a short while

Mid-semester break.... is so sweet.

I'm at Sarah's house in Florida right now. It is so nice. And relaxing. And really fun.

People here are really really obsessed with cooking. Like... wow I dunno. I'm like "Let's order pizza!" And everyone else is like "Let's make a five course meal! JOY UNBOUNDED!!"

It's cool though. It's not that I don't like cooking, it's just that I've kind of gotten used to eating right away and not really waiting for food to happen. It's pretty sad actually, so this is a good thing.

I was sooo stressed out about getting down here in one piece. I am really not a fan of driving and whatever, so I switched with Laura and Sarah which was really good. Sarah kind of scared me at first drivingwise, but she's easily as good a driver as I am. Zeke ended up coming with us too, which is fine, but it meant we left at 4:30 and got here at like... midnight. Which sucked quite a lot. I'm REALLY going to make sure we leave at a decent time on Sunday. Like... before noon hopefully.

I can't believe it's already Friday. WAAAAHHHH.

Donnie went to California... Jealousssssss.

Man, I feel like he's playing me so bad lately. I hate it.

I think really far into things. I hate that too. I do that and then I take everything to mean something when it probably doesn't. ugh. rar. and other exclamations of anger.

I sort of feel like I shouldn't hang out with him anymore since it's causing me so much internal strife. But if I didn't have that, I'd probably be depressed too, so I think I'd rather hang out with him than not. Not like we really do much of that anymore. I think we hang out like.... once a week? I see him about every day though. At tennis and at lunch if I'm lucky. And then, that chick is always there. I think I make her a tad nervous though, so... props to me I guess.

RAAATTERJIOFGJERUJIEUHFEFJEJRF I was supposed to somehow avoid all this angst by NOT dating him. But now I sort of want to. But sort of not at the same time. I think I'd rather try dating him than not.

IDONT"KNOWWWWW

And I miss Josh. A lot. I really want to know how the whole trip went... I wonder if that's what Sarah called me about earlier.... hmm I probably should have called her back. I'll call tonight I guess.

I think about really lame stuff. SOO much more to life than boys. Like..... art. Yes.

Oh I went on a pseudo-date with Justin. MAN that was weird. I really didn't want it to be a date (and it wasn't) but I could tell he wanted it to be. He tried to buy me a notebook and possibly coffee, but guys buying me stuff weirds me out as it is, much less one I don't have any intention whatsoever of dating. He's cool and everything, he just reminds me waaayyy too much of Leigh pushard from high school.

I am so shallow. It's sad.

anyway, I guess i should probably stop typing and be social or something. *sigh* More freakin' cooking. hahah.

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I {do not} Need {you anymore} Truth

Oh man.... Can you say "most useless evening evarr?"

I can. "Most useless evening EVARR!"

So the plan was to go get the comp fixed and buy pancake making stuff.

None of that happened, and I left my comp in this guy's car!! I am such an idiot.

I was gonna have Donnie come with me but then he called back and was like "I'm going with some people to the mall, do you wanna come too?" So I was like "cool" and went. There were these two (I believe they were) Freshmen chicks who came with, and.... HOLY FIRKIN' CRAP were they dumb. Then, the piece de resistance, Clanky Keychain Girl Pants (aka Matt) showed up. He was nearly as annoying as the girls were, clanky keychain wise. hahah.

I'm being catty. I should stop. I believe I have said enough. AHEM!

But anyway, the OTHER dude who came with us, Dan, was pretty cool. I guess he's an English major which is neet. Someone interesting to talk to. At least I could talk to him without him saying "OHMYGODIKNOWRIGHT?" every five seconds.

Crap I said I'd stop that. I'm done.

Hahahah. Whatever. If Donnie prefers idiots, that's his problem.

Also ran into Ryan Moore. Friggin... whatever. That kid is always popping up in the randomest places in my life.

And that kid from the VM... I can never remember his name...Which was cool I guess. I felt cool knowing so many random people.

Man I'm tired. I feel really warm. Maybe I'm sick. I should go to sleep. This blog post is kind of going nowhere.

I got zero work done tonight. IRUT*)E$A(TU$*)EJERIO#*)(#)*TUJELFJD")@$+_!}$)_(#U()%#)%

Shit.