He's a loser but he still keeps on tryin'

Yeah, so this has been an interesting weekend…

So Josh n Sarah came back for a visit.

I had really high hopes for this weekend. I thought, “Yes! I’m going to get to spend some quality time w/ people I’ve really missed lately.” Oh no. It’s never that easy. I got to spend lots of time with Sarah, which was nice, but Jen managed to monopolize Josh for the whole time. Here’s a basic overview of what went on:

So Thursday went fine. We surprised a bunch of people with Sarah (not many people knew she was home) and went and visited Josh at a football game. All was well. Nothing out of the ordinary. And then, Friday, we had the sleepover, but Jen and Josh ended up getting really chummy and holding hands and laying in each other’s laps and it was just like Can’t we talk without having to look at you guys fondling each other? (answer: No.) Sarah and I ended up going downstairs cuz we couldn’t look at it anymore. But finally, we ended up going to bed (and by we, I mean everyone except jen and josh.) And apparently, they did stuff after we went to bed that would cause Jen to wear a turtleneck to church and a scarf later on. Chyeah.

Long story short… they basically just made out the whole car ride back from Portland. We got to listen to the macking sounds coming from the backseat. Awesome. And Erica was back there with them while it all went on! I think I’m gonna have a hard time having much respect for Jen after this.

It was just really dumb.

As is so many other things.

But Tuesday’s my birthday, so all is right with the world for the most part. I guess.

And she wrote nothing more.

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Eyes glazed with distrust, no sense of wrong or right

Well, I’ve been nice and lazy and haven’t written for eons, so I guess it’s time to talk about what we learned today!

Sorry I sort of have veggie tales on the brain.

School’s going pretty nicely. I’m enjoying being on open campus and…just having a good time. Mostly. Of course there’s always got to be something wrong. Like a certain annoying someone popping back into the picture unbeknownst to me. And one of the few decent guys left doesn’t seem to care that I exist. Well, I guess it’s time for clarification.

Matt T. has been bugging me to be in his band, which would, incidentally, consist of just…me and him. And guess what?!?! Since I was kind of caught off guard and hate confrontation to begin with, I said yes. How stupid do I get exactly???

But when you get down to brass tacks, I was sort of planning on saying yes to that anyway. The best part of our pseudo relationship thingy was the time I got to sing with his band. I don’t really mind being just…JUST… friends with him and singing whilst he plays guitar, but I couldn’t possibly care any less about being in any sort of relationship, even a pseudo relationship, with him. And I hope to eventually make that painfully clear. Because it seemed when he was asking me if I wanted to “jam” that there was more to it than just the band bit. I don’t think I can explain it and maybe I’m way off base, but it just felt like there was some innuendo somewhere in there.

Well enough about THAT little blemish on my social life…

The guy I happen to REALLY like… I don’t know, it just seems like he’s not really the dating type and if he was, I’d kind of be like really low on the totem pole. It just seems like it’s never going to happen. I don’t know what I can do to make things interesting, and to be honest I don’t really know if I want things to be interesting or not. Non-interesting is nice too sometimes after an extended interesting period. Especially when there’s going to be an even more interesting period ahead.

And guess what basically made my life? Mike’s got a girlfriend…who’s like 3 feet tall…and is really disgusting and not even CLOSE to his type! HAH! Plus, she’s a freshman. And an annoying one at that. She used to hang out with Jocelyn Richards for crying out loud. Whatever. If he’s that desperate… It just seems insanely ironic that he thinks that much of himself and he ends up with HER for a girlfriend. Too much, simply too, too much.

Well at any rate, I need to take a shower.

Boys are tres tres stupide. C’est tout. Mais, c’est ils que j’adore. C’est la vie.

C’est tout elle a ecrit.

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