Time is almost up

Up at the crack of 10ish with nothing much to do.

I've been getting some wierd rash from being out in the sun which is really making me mad.

As well as a few other things that are making me mad.

This is the last day we're just here and not driving or anything. Makes me sad, cuz I STILL HAVEN'T BEEN ABLE TO TALK TO MATT YET AND IT'S DRIVING ME INSANE!!!!

I think I may call him tonight if by that time I still haven't talked to him. I guess... Idk, I just really want to know if he's going to prom and if we can hang out sunday. Two simple questions. No big deal or anything.

Someone tried to call me on my cell phone but apparently they hung up, cuz I tried to listen to the voicemail message and there was some woman's voice in the background and then they hung up. It said there was no number, so I couldn't find out wheather or not it was Matt. I think it could have been just a wrong number or something. I may try and call it back just to see what happened.

sheesh this is a pain in the ass.

And I still have this freaking cold. What the hell.

Went "shopping" yesterday. Possibly the most depressing thing everrr. So I have 16 bucks left and nothing, I mean NOTHING was even CLOSE to being that cheap. I mean we even went into this paper goods store and the freaking pencils were like 25 bucks a pop.

But Tina ended up buying me and celeste flip flops and t-shirts, so that was pretty nice of her. Except she told us she wanted to buy us something at the last store we went to which made me just a teeny bit upset, cuz there were other stores I had liked better, but I like what I got anyway. I guess we're going "shopping" again today at this other store that was closed when we were there yesterday, so I don't know if she's going to buy us something else or what. I sorta doubt it but I sure as hell ain't buyin anything.

Welp that's my life in a nutshell. bye!

xxxx

boop...boop...beeeeeeeeeppppp

Hi!

Ehhhh...

Not much goin on right now. Actually a little on the bored side. I am severely sun-burned, so I'm just chillin' inside fer now. I was going to try and do some homework, but apathy set in and I just ended up reading The New Yorker instead. Celeste and Daddy went to get their hair cut earlier, but I've mostly just been hanging out by the pool (in the shade I should mention. GAAAHH!! Time off my tanning regimine.)

And that's about it. But it's nice to relax and not have like pressures and everything.

I guess we're going to check out that college on Wednsday. I really hope we make it home on time, cuz that'll be like 20 bucks down the toilet if we don't (and it may be 20 bucks down the toilet anyway.)

well I have to go. I never really get to finnish one of these. Maybe someday...

that's all she wrote this time.

xxx

Wastin' away again in Margaritaville

Well we're here.

Goodness gracious it is really nice. The weather is pretty much perfect, I've already started on my tan, we're going shopping at a freakin' GINORMOUS mall later today, came really close to finally getting in touch w/ Matt and and and.... Life is GOOD!

I'm kind of worried that I don't have enough money to get something really nice at this mall, cuz everything is gonna be crazy expensive, and I am like crazy poor. But I'll find something. They have a Sephora (!!!) but I probably won't be buying anything there after all. Cuz I freakin' don't need any more makeup. I'm on the lookout for a trucker hat and anything else that I can't live without. I still can't decide if I wanna buy one big thing or... what but yeah anyhoo...

But honestly, other than being on the beach/pool and going shopping, it's really kinda boring here. And I miss everybody. But it beats the living piss out of being home. I'll write more later cuz Celeste is begging me to go swimming and I can't refuse her much longer.

*Sniff* And that's all she wrote *Tear*

xxxxxoooooxxxx

And you thought this would be easy... HAH!

Well hello...

I'm on my florida trip, and on this second day of it we are STILL at the motel and STILL somewhere near New York. We had a spot of car trouble, so we spent the better part of yesterday at this same hotel/motel whatever. If it's a motel, it's a really good one. There was like this insane breakfast, the rooms are really pretty and the shower is pretty much to die for. The best part of my day yesterday was probably taking a really long shower and painting my nails. It was really nice. But other than that, I'm kinda bored stiff. Luckily for me, I found this computer, so I wrote to Sarah, tried to get onto AIM, but that didn't work so well. Not like anyone would be on anyway though, this being vacation and everything.

Had a suuuppppeeerrrr embarrasing incident avec Matt last week.

But I guess the car is done being fixed, so I gotta go pack.

that's all she wrote!

xxx

I was the joke and it was good

Well it certainly has been quite a weekend.

Hung out with Matt again yesterday (and his band.) They are all really good. Matt is actually a really good singer, but like every time someone tried to hold the mike up to him, he’d just stop singing and I was like “awww!” He’s the way I used to be about singing. He’s also insane on the guitar.

It was just me and four guys there. His parents and sisters were around like the whole time and kept popping in, so that kind of made me feel better. About half way through, we all went outside and three of them started smoking. They asked Matt if he wanted a cigarette and he said no, so I was pretty proud of him.

But then I got home and apparently Sarah said something about how Matt can be a bit of a caution, so I got the third degree from Mum. If anything happened that made me uncomfortable, I’d just walk out. But while I was talking to mum, Matt IM’d me on my phone and was like “wanna be my sugar mama?” so then I was kinda freaking out trying to get online on the real computer and by that time, he had his away message on, so I was just kinda like shit.

So I stayed awake a lot of last night wondering if I should tell him that I’m waiting to get married to have sex. I want to go out with him really bad and I’m worried that if I tell him that, he won’t want to. So then I thought, if things get heavy or something I’ll just be like “I’m not ready” or “I’m really worried about getting pregnant” both of which are true statements. Plus, by the way things have been going, I don’t think sex is something I have to worry about right away. He seems a bit on the shy side. But we’ll see. Hopefully he’ll come online when he gets home.

I stayed home today cuz I was feeling really nauseous (which I still kind of am. I’m pretty positive it’s nerves) and I really didn’t get much good sleep last night. PLUS I didn’t study for my math test and I honestly can’t afford to bomb another one of those.

Well, wish me luck…

That’s it.

xxx

Please keep arms and legs in for the duration of the ride

Well it’s back to being a pissed kitten for me.

Great.

He was supposed to call me today (and by “he” I mean Matt) and it’s almost seven and still nothing. We just missed a call which could have been him, but I have my serious doubts. I don’t know what the hell’s going on. If he doesn’t want to hang out with me he could just not say he was going to call. I kinda don’t like clinging to the phone like I do when I’m expecting a call from him. It SUCKS!

If this is going to be some kind of regular thing, then I don’t know what I’m going to do.

I sort of want to confront him about it, but I don’t want to make it sound like I don’t like him or something. This is like more trouble than liking Mike. But at least I actually talk to Matt.

The reason I know he was supposed to call me today was cuz I talked to him this morning. I was like “I need to get your number” and he’s like “Yeah I’ll call you tonight.” So now I’m wondering if… wow I really just don’t know. This is a major pain. Brandy keeps telling me he really likes me and stuff, but you’d think if he really liked me he’d actually put in the effort and CALL MEEEE. And does he not want me calling him? Is that the deal? I don’t really need this crap. I’ve been through like twice my share of emotional BS this year, and I sort of thought this would be a break, but… Idk. I need to stop complaining.

I’m only complaining cuz I like him so much. Otherwise I wouldn’t care. I’d probably be happy.

Zis iss all she wrote.

xxx

People say she's crazy, she got diamonds on the soles of her shoes

Hum de dum de dum.

Just got back from Pizazz. That went well. Except for the fact that I don’t think Matt showed up. Which rather pisses me off to be quite honest. Things haven’t been working out so well lately. I was supposed to call him the other night, but I never got his number from Brandy. We’re supposed to hang out tomorrow, so I’m kind of expecting a call from him sometime soon. According to Brandy, Matt really likes me and wants to go out with me, buuutttt, eahh, haven’t really talked to him in a while sooo… idk.

But whatever. I really like him. A lot. I just hope he won’t somehow disappoint me.

Matt (the other matt) and Jen are going out. I may or may not have said that already, but whatever. He is awkward and annoying, and I don’t think Jen deserves that. But if she likes him and he likes her and nobody’s gonna get all pissy, then it’s all good.

I can’t believe it’s 11:00!! I’m not even that tired! Clocks go ahead tonight.

There was a pizzazz party at Maude’s, but I didn’t feel like making an appearance. I just wanted to get out of that stupid dress. My hair still looks perty awesome though.

Stupid Matt. I can’t believe he didn’t come. *sigh*.

Why does nothing go right? Ever?

Florida. Soon. Can’t. Wait.

That’s all she wrote.

xxx