like teenage lovers between the sheets

HAPPY 90th POST!!!! WOOOOOHHOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!

Ugh I'm getting another cold. *cry* *wimper*

ONLYAWEEKANDAHALFBEFOREIGETTOLEAAAAVVVVEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!

I feel bad for wanting to leave coz it means I won't be seeing michael for quite some time. I'll miss him. Going home will leave me with a whole new list of things to miss. A much shorter list, granted, but a list none the less.

I wonder what things will be like next year between us. The same? Better? Worse?
Only time will tell.

Went to Strawberry festival and made Chris come with me in lieu of Jennifer (it is sooo hard to yank these academic types away from their homework). Michael was playing in a bunch of songs, so it would mean I wouldn't have anyone to sit with. And I won't have that, I'm sorry.

It was kind of wierd though because I kept having the urge to hold his hand. I guess I'm just waaaayyy too used to being with just michael. hahahahahaha.

There were quite a few technical difficulties during strawberry fest. Ryan must have been freaking out like crazy.

He keeps promising to hang out with me. I do believe he is a lying sack of doorknobs.

THERE IS AN ENDLESS AMOUNT OF PACKING TO DOOOO!!!!!!! I really really really want to throw everything all out. Just... start over next year.

ohhh my throat... it buuuurrrrnnnnsssss.....

goodnight.

♥

let us die young or let us live forever

oh... wow.

Well... I am for REAL not a kissing virgin anymore.

that was so bizarre. Nothing like I expected.

A lot wetter. Definitely.

...

Such wierd things went through my mind...

our stomachs touching

"I promised myself I wouldn't break away as soon this time"

5 o'clock shadow on my cheek

our lips are nesting

like the movies

everything's going so fast

am I doing this right?

was that tounge? Or teeth? Both?!

He says something.... sounds are muffled

I can get the door on my own... Really, I'm capable.

wiping spit off my mouth when he's out of sight.

What. Just. Happened.


Why do I feel so unexcited? Where was the rush? Why do I still feel like I have saliva on my face?


WHY CAN'T I JUST BE HAPPY??

it used to be the reason to breathe but now it's choking me up

I hate how I operate.

So I talked to Colby tonight online. Convo was going really slow so I thought I'd bring up... her. I thought I could handle it... I was wrong.

I don't know why I do things like that to myself.

I miss the way things used to be... before they got awkward. I don't know what happened or if it was my fault or what, but it's not the same anymore and it hurts so much.

MANNN!!!


ugghh.


and three cheers for staph infections. NOT!!

xxoo

I'm an animal trapped in your hot car

Hi.

Well I really don't have that much to say today. I just remembered that I was going to blog the other night, so I'm doing it now... go figure.

I almost fell asleep whilst standing on a step ladder today. It was really awkward. I need to not spend so much time doing nothing. It's really bad.

Concerts, concerts, concerts! I guess I'm going to a casting crowns concert in the near future. Which may or may not conflict with me possibly going to a RACONTEURS concert!!!! OH MAN!! Another chance to see the steaming hot JACK WHITE in person with my own two eyeballs. There are two days of shows, so maybe... we'll see. I would SO MUCH RATHER go to the raconteurs concert, but I already said I was going to go to the casting crowns one with Michael. I've never even heard Casting Crowns.....

*goes off to search for some sample tracks*

Hmmm.... they sound a lot like a countryish version of Third Day.... meh.

Well... The raconteurs show IS on two different days..... maybe there's still a chance.

haha the band members of Casting Crowns look kind of really old. Laaaaame saaaaaauce.

Hahah it's all good though.

I'm really nervous to actually make out with michael. Like... kissing him is ok (when I actually hit his mouth.... yeah, don't you say a word or you'll be late.... THE late that is.) But.... I've never done what you might call.... extended kissing. And I shouldn't be nervous about it. How can you really go wrong? Wait.... hahahahha ohhhh man.

I just wish that he'd take the lead. Like just.... go for it. I feel like it's on my shoulders. Not where it should be.

He gave me an undershirt of his. I am wearing it right now. It has a disturbing stain right about where his left nipple would be.... I hope it's just a coincidence. It smells a lot like him. And tide to go, which I should mention smells AWFUL!!! OH MAN!! Plus I keep smelling my chemically hands which is not helping.

Apparently Michael wears OLD SCHOOL old spice, not the axe type stuff.... which is kind of funny because his sister wears (A LOT) of Charlie..... Classics never die... I guess.

Well I suppose I should do work. Ok.

xoxoxo