Hello from North Carolina!! Wooo hooo! Tan self, here I come!!
Yesterday went really well, no car trouble or anything. It’s still really cold (only… oh wait it’s 57. Nevermind!) It was snowing when we left, which was kinda depressing. We stopped at Jerry’s Artarama, which was an amazing(ly overwhelming) experience. I ended up spending waay too much on a little watercolor palette and a Moleskine watercolor notebook. It was worth it though I think. I promised myself I wouldn’t buy anything that I could get back home… although I could have easily bought those things at home… whatever. From now on… The room we stayed in last night was pretty freakin’ sweet. The light outside the room was the only one in the hallway that was flickering. And we had not much hot water. But the beds were pretty comfy and there was WiFi, which brings me to my next topic…
Sarah wrote me this really long letter about how she felt we were drifting apart and stuff. I was really glad to get it because Ryan kept telling me she was really mad at me and I needed to talk to her. But of course he wouldn’t say why because he “didn’t want to get in the middle of it.” Useless… But anyway, it was really good to finally hear what the issue was (although I think I already knew what the problem was subconsciously. Just really good to get it all out in the open without a lot of assumptions.) She offered to let me stay in her room with her on Sunday night and I said yes, but I’ve been thinking that maybe that’s not what I want to do. She said she’d understand if I said no, so it’s all good hopefully. I was basically just really relieved to get that letter from her. It should make my visit a lot less awkward.
Hmmm… not much new I guess. I’ve been talking to Aaron Drost online… wondering if that’s a good plan or not. Gaaah!! It’s weird because a lot of people that annoy my friends don’t annoy me as much. Which makes it really hard sometimes. I don’t know. I’m just going to make it crystal clear that I’m only interested in being friends.
Friday, Josh “officially” asked me to prom with a flower. It was very sweet if not somewhat unnecessary. He asked for my house/cell numbers, which I gave him. Don’t know if that was a good plan or not, but guys usually don’t remember to call anyway, so it’s all good. I guess I wouldn’t mind hanging out, but the whole point in me going to prom with him was because we were friends. Josh is super flirty with any girl who looks at him sideways, so it’s probably just how it’s going to be. Whaaatever.
I need to work on that newspaper now I guess… don’t want to… at all really… Mum keeps nagging. I wish she’d realize that that’s NOT going to make me go aaany faster.
Really nervous about Sunday… There’s this thing called “Strawberry Festival” at the school that I’m going to be at. It’s showcasing what everyone has been working on all year. Then there’s supposed to be some party type thing going on afterwards, and that’s what I’m the most nervous about. I really need to just relax and be myself, because if I stay nervous like I am right now just thinking about it I’m bound to do something stupid. I keep going over it again and again in my mind. I even dreamed about it last night. Funny that I even dream in awkward. I asked Todd if he was going to be able to come see me and he said he probably would be able to, but I kind of doubt it for some reason. He also told me that he told Sarah he likes her and she is now acting really weird, and he took that as a sign from God that he should stay single for now. Which, at the time, made me kind of depressed, but thinking about it now, it shouldn’t have made me sad because for now could be… a long time. Ehhh, I tend to put all my eggs in one basket. Bad plan.
Well I’m feeling a tad nauseous now, so I’ll write more later. Probably in floridaaaahhhh!! Wooo hooo!!! Oh wow I need to calm down.
<33 Amanda
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