isn't this exactly where you'd like me

Well the second half of my vacation wasn’t much more productive then the first half. But it’s all good.

Let’s see…

I spent a lot of time trying to work on papers and stuff. I finally finished writing my English paper just a few min. ago. I got all the research done for my other two papers. One is due wednesday and the other I really don’t know when its due, but neither does anyone else.

Thursday, Celeste and I went shopping w/ Nana. Didn’t buy anything, but it was nice to get out. Thursday night we all went to the movies with Colby and saw “Epic Movie.” Probably the stupidest movie I have ever seen. But it was one of those stupid funny movies, so everyone was laughing like crazy, but when we got out we were all like “Wow, that was stupid.” We went to B&N after, and that was a little weird, cuz I bought myself food and nobody else ate anything… I felt like a huge jerk/pig. It was funny though coz Colby was like “You should just throw that last piece of cheesecake.” And I did! After we left B&N I threw the cheesecake up against the side of the movie theater, and Jen said it’s still there.

hahahah.

Oh man… I really really don’t want to go back to school. Ever.

I guess Sarah is coming home Thursday. That’s pretty cool. I just hope things aren’t awkward vis a vis Sarah and the Manning girls. Ehh… none of my business. We’re supposed to have a bowling thing next Saturday night and we’re trying to get Colby to come. I think he will. He was saying something about how he’s got this other youth group he’s part of. Then I freaked out and was like “Oh I see how it is. I thought we meant something special. It’s just one youth group after another with you.” And he’s all “No! You guys mean a lot to me!” It was pretty funny.

Well it seems that I am getting a pet fish tomorrow, so I need to clean out the tank now.

Love love love

♥ ♥ ♥

xXx

laugh it all off in your face

Ello all.

Well, it’s been quite a nice vacation so far. Not a very productive one yet, but…..SOOOO relaxing.

Hung out with Mike the other day. That was fun and random. We went all around the Augusta. We ran into Rob and Anya which was cool I guess. A little awkward. But that’s ok. The whole thing was fun. Really low stress. I hope it happens again.

And then today I was hoping to get some actual work done on the bazillion papers I have to write, but I had to take Celeste into town. I had zero money and had to go through Old Navy when they have all their super cute spring clothes. I suffered physical pain. It was bad. It’s crazy what that store does to me sometimes. But only in the spring. Any other time it’s just like “…..ehh.” But in the spring… I don’t know. It’s amazing. Celeste picked up some sweater thing and I actually said “It’s too warm for that.” I didn’t just think it, I said it. It’s like 20 degrees out. Maybe.

hahahah.

And tonight I went to Red Robin with some friends and had an absolutely lovely time.

Not to be vain or anything, but I love that last sentence.

Ryan wrote last night. He’s like “You’ve been quiet… too quiet. Is something wrong?” It made me really sad for some reason. A weird happy sad. Happy because he cares that I haven’t been talking to him regularly, and sad that… I couldn’t tell him that I feel like we’ve run out of things to talk about. Maybe we haven’t, maybe I’m just imagining. I told him about how I have to pay ($50) the phone bill we rang up. I’m not telling him how much it was, and maybe he’s had the same thing too. Dunno. But he’s all “Sarah’s mad at me” and he said he kind of knew what it was about, but then there was a typo in his message, so I got all confused. Whatever though. I think she’s mad about the cologne. She chewed me out about it big time, which I thought was hilarious. He liked it, he thanked me a bunch for it, and I don’t care if it’s creepy. I don’t think he thought it was. Whatever, I couldn’t care less.

I've been propositioning people to do Pizazz with me all evening. I haven't heard back from the people, but soon... I will. I just realized I didn't tell John that I can't do it on Friday...oops. Oh well. I've been practicing "It don't mean a thing (if it ain't got that swing)" a ton. So much that I've been getting the little scat segments really really firmly stuck in my head. Which, of course, was the idea.

I think I’m going to try and be useful for… ooh a half hour.

{haha. not}

Goodbye loves.

♥

If I kiss you where it's sore will you feel anything at all?

Ok, confession time.

If I don’t get this off my chest, I think that bad things will happen.

…

{why does this always happen to me?}

Ok, over the course of the past few weeks, I’ve been hanging out with this kid in the play, aaannnndddd…. I may have a lil bit of a crush on him.

Did I mention he’s in 8th grade?

Yeah, pretty sure that’s illegal.

It makes me sad.

And the other thing that makes me even sadder is that the play is over and I won’t get to see him much. Which is probably a good thing. A really good thing.

Wow, this is pathetic. Hard. Core. Pathetic.

We had the anti cast party last night. It was crazy fun. We went to Denny’s and then ran around wal-mart for a while, then drove Chris home and everyone else home and I got home around 3 in the morning. It made me sad that we had to end it so early, but, again, it was probably a good thing.

Tears. On the inside.

I really need to do something to help get my mind of my pathetic behaivior.

Sent Ryan some cologne in the mail. I hope it makes it to him. And I hope it makes it to him in one piece. His birthday is today, and the thing should get to him on… Tuesday? Something like that. I hope he likes it.

Gonna go be obsessive about Myspace/Clean/Write papers.

Tout mon amour.

La gamine