Holy cow…
Well, hello there!
SOOO MUCH SHIT has happened since July or whenever it was that I last posted.
I will try and do a recap/blow by blow of my life since then (because I have about, ohhh… three and a half hours to blow before I can check my suitcase for home. That’s right ladies and germs, I am trapped at Regan intl. airport until further notice. Will whatever airline I decide to use PLEASE try not to mess up? Again? Freakin’… second time in a row I’ve had to spend the night somewhere. At least Delta gave me a room, freakin’ US Air is making me sleep in the airport. Fuckers.)
Ahem.
Ok so shortly after the white stripes concert, I decided to tell Colby I liked him. Well I didn’t really decide, it was more like he made me think he liked me so I said something. Turns out Laura has her claws in him deep. Probably all for the best anyway. Luckily we are still good friends. I hope. Lately he’s either really busy or I am bugging the crap out of him because it seems like there is no possible way to get ahold of him.
{Still not over him for the record. Silly, I know. Know, but don’t care}
So I went to college. Oh man… I don’t even know where to start. I was kind of hoping I would get to see Sarah and Ryan more (bahahahah) but…. Yeah, NOT. Whatever though. I understand. Kinda.
So I’ve basically had to make my own way in the world. Which has had its moments, but has pretty well panned out overall I suppose. I finally dated Todd for a while. My roommates were all really freaked out when I hung out with him for the first time. I was super freaked out too, but I went with him anyway. Whether or not that was terribly smart of me was another thing entirely.
Todd… man how do I even begin?
The boy had some really weird ideas about things, which I mostly just ignored. I felt really bad mostly because I always had the feeling that he was way more into me than I was into him. Turns out that’s kind of a sucky feeling. I always kind of imagined it to be kind of cool (secretly) but it really isn’t. I’m horrible. He was really sweet… too sweet. That turned out to be his downfall, at least for me it was. I seem to have a little bit of a skewed version of how things are supposed to go relationship wise. Well, either I do or he does. He would always say “I want this to be your best relationship. The relationship by which all of your following relationships are based.” Sweet… yet oddly disturbing. And then near the end of the relationship, he would show up at school unannounced. This REALLY weirded me out, and I don’t know if it should have. I mean, if I REALLY liked him, I should have been psyched to see him. But it was just really creepy to me.
At any rate, I dumped him. Well I like to think of it as a mutual thing because during a rather deep discussion about where our relationship was headed and about how it was stressing me out school wise (which apparently was more important than him according to him…. NOT), he was all “I feel like I should break up with you, but I don’t want to if YOU don’t want to, because I still want to go out with you” and so on.
Freakin’…. This is making me tired. I’ll write more later if I get the chance.