Welp!
I am dating Michael.
It's going well so far. I'm like giddy-happy around him, which is nice. I wish he would relax, he always seems so nervous to me. There's really no need, I'm the last person to be nervous around. We held hands tonight for the first time... well unless you count dancing, where hand-holding is an unavoidable necessity. hahaha aaaanyway.
It's not quiiiite how I imagined, but I'm not sure exactly what it was I imagined in the first place anyway, so... yeah.
I don't know if I'm a gentleman's lady. I somehow doubt it.
But I'm still happy, so as far as I'm concerned, that's all that matters.
Maybe I'm somehow being uptight too, just in a different sort of way.
Amanda LeFurgy: making boys nervous from day one.
I went to get career councelling. It went kind of bad at first because I may have said that I have feelings of worthlessness and that I sometimes think about hurting myself and I have self-image issues. That did not start us out on the right foot. But I sort of felt that my problems needed attention from SOMEONE, so... yeah.
A little overdramatic? Maybe
Anyhoo, he said Journalism was right for me. Kind of dissappointing, but... not at the same time, so that's good. I guess?
I'm hungry. And have nothing to eat. And need to stop talking to Ehren and go to SLEEP.
Goodnight
♥
Thursday, February 21, 2008
Saturday, February 09, 2008
you're pulling out the best in me, yeah, which never, ever comes
Yay I have the room to myself for the WHOLE WEEKEND!!!
IMAGINE THE POSSIBILITIES!!
mostly, I've just been going around in my unda-pants. Something I miss doing strangely enough.
It's still a pigstye in here. I was going to clean, I started to clean, but she is still messy. Possibly worse than before... somehow.
Went to vespers with Michael. That was fun, but vespers gets over at kind of an awkward time. There's still the whole evening to blow and nothing really to do except to get love tips from Dr. Bietz....hhhhhhhhhhhhha. So I ended up going and hanging out with Sarah and her friends. They seem pretty cool. A couple of them used to be (possibly still are) into drugs, so, par usuale, that made things exciting.... somehow.
Walked RIGHT BY Ryan on the stairs tonight and I was all "ryanmoore" and nothing. He was talking to someone but he could have at least given me a nod or something. I texted him a few hours ago but I haven't heard back. So THAT kind of pissed me off.
Might go dancing again tomorrow. Woohooo?
And sunday, I'm supposed to go to Michael's sister's house to eat. So that should be fun.
Hahah I'm a mobster in Sonrise. That starts tuesday and I really hope it doesn't eat up my time too much. Because we all know how much I love to do homework. Or at least how long it takes me to do. Ha rumph.
Jen and I had a heart-to-heart about boys the other day. I love those kinds of conversations. It started with me asking her if I should go out with Michael and ended with us talking about how much sex might hurt the first time. Which as I think about it is not that much of a stretch.
Tired.
bed.
no makeup removal.
Still miss everything.
Still confused.
Still frusturated.
Still mad at myself for... everything.
bed.
goodnight.
♥
IMAGINE THE POSSIBILITIES!!
mostly, I've just been going around in my unda-pants. Something I miss doing strangely enough.
It's still a pigstye in here. I was going to clean, I started to clean, but she is still messy. Possibly worse than before... somehow.
Went to vespers with Michael. That was fun, but vespers gets over at kind of an awkward time. There's still the whole evening to blow and nothing really to do except to get love tips from Dr. Bietz....hhhhhhhhhhhhha. So I ended up going and hanging out with Sarah and her friends. They seem pretty cool. A couple of them used to be (possibly still are) into drugs, so, par usuale, that made things exciting.... somehow.
Walked RIGHT BY Ryan on the stairs tonight and I was all "ryanmoore" and nothing. He was talking to someone but he could have at least given me a nod or something. I texted him a few hours ago but I haven't heard back. So THAT kind of pissed me off.
Might go dancing again tomorrow. Woohooo?
And sunday, I'm supposed to go to Michael's sister's house to eat. So that should be fun.
Hahah I'm a mobster in Sonrise. That starts tuesday and I really hope it doesn't eat up my time too much. Because we all know how much I love to do homework. Or at least how long it takes me to do. Ha rumph.
Jen and I had a heart-to-heart about boys the other day. I love those kinds of conversations. It started with me asking her if I should go out with Michael and ended with us talking about how much sex might hurt the first time. Which as I think about it is not that much of a stretch.
Tired.
bed.
no makeup removal.
Still miss everything.
Still confused.
Still frusturated.
Still mad at myself for... everything.
bed.
goodnight.
♥
Sunday, February 03, 2008
your promises, they look like lies
well... yep!
Hahah went dancing again. It was pretty sweet, not quite as much fun as last time, mostly coz it was super packed. I didn't get to dance with as many different people, but it was still pretty fun and I'm def. getting better at it. I spent like the whole day with Michael, which was cool, but kind of wierd, coz Sarah was there too. That was no problem, but... yeah it was different.
oh man I don't know how I feel about Michael. I'm not sure if I like him enough to go out with him. I hate feeling blase about people. I don't know, I guess we'll just see how it goes.
He went to black christian union church service with Sarah and Sahale and I and we accidentially ended up sitting really near his ex-girlfriend. Good grief she's ugly. Hahaha, I should talk.
man I am a horrible person.
At any rate, I don't want to be unfair to anyone. I sort of wish he could be more relaxed. I guess I should just not worry about it and like Sarah said, just give off a friendly vibe, which is what I hope I've been doing the whole time.
bfidehgfoidjfkeutegkdf
ha.
bye!
<3
Hahah went dancing again. It was pretty sweet, not quite as much fun as last time, mostly coz it was super packed. I didn't get to dance with as many different people, but it was still pretty fun and I'm def. getting better at it. I spent like the whole day with Michael, which was cool, but kind of wierd, coz Sarah was there too. That was no problem, but... yeah it was different.
oh man I don't know how I feel about Michael. I'm not sure if I like him enough to go out with him. I hate feeling blase about people. I don't know, I guess we'll just see how it goes.
He went to black christian union church service with Sarah and Sahale and I and we accidentially ended up sitting really near his ex-girlfriend. Good grief she's ugly. Hahaha, I should talk.
man I am a horrible person.
At any rate, I don't want to be unfair to anyone. I sort of wish he could be more relaxed. I guess I should just not worry about it and like Sarah said, just give off a friendly vibe, which is what I hope I've been doing the whole time.
bfidehgfoidjfkeutegkdf
ha.
bye!
<3
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