they'll name the city after us

Hi!

Nice day today. Went sno-ball dress shopping with Haruka today. It was cool because she hasn’t been to a lot of the stores around here. I took her to deb to find the dress cuz thy have a nice range of styles for cheap. She told me that deb means fat in Japanese which I found hilarious. And terribly, terribly ironic. If you ever feel bad about yourself or you just aren’t having a good day, go to a dress shop and try on dresses. It’s like the cure for the common anything. I tried on a few too, even though I wasn’t buying. You would never guess, but it is an incredible amount of fun. I found this one uber pretty one that wasn’t in my size, but it would have been gorgeous if it was. It looked like a wedding dress (mostly cuz it was white) but I kind of felt like a greek goddess wearing it:

Lovely, no?

And then, there was this one, which at first glance appears to be a pink nightmare, but in reality is… crazy pretty.



It was a lot of fun. I feel sorry for boys. They don’t have this to make them feel better about themselves. Poor, poor boys.

Speaking of which…

Matt T… has dropped out. HA HA HAAAA! He left me this comment the other day: “No more chorus…” Guess not. He is, like I have said countless times before, a flaming idiot.

Regina Spektor is an A MAZING singer. I almost ran out and bought her CD after I got home from shopping, she is that good. If ANYONE besides myself reads this, if there’s one thing you take away from my blog, it should be that Regina Spektor is worth listening to a very minimum of 5 times in your life.

It would be really nice if Ryan would call me right…about……….NOW!..............................

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Why is it guys never call? Is it really because they’re not that into you? *Cry*

That’s all she wrote darlinks.

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perfunctory idols rewriting their bibles with magic markers running out of their ink

Rockin' out to some sweet Beck tunes... New Round right now... that is such a good song.

So yeah, I did the recording thing... it sucked. I sucked. I don't know what's the matter with me anymore.

Beck has a thing for the word Perfunctory. It's a good word. Wish I knew what it meant...

I've been having Ryan withdrawal really badly. It's funny because it's only been a few days since I talked to him... wow.

I'm sooo bored.

I should go clean.

Yeah, maybe I'll do that...

I eat way too much starch for my own good.

Haha.

Oh, and I had to tell Sarah I didn't want to room with her. It wasn't fun for me. It made me really sad actually. Who knows I may end up rooming with her second semester. We'll see. I want to at least start out with a new roommate, just to see what it's like.

I wish I had both the shirts I was going to make the bag out of. Then I would have that to do. I really ought to be making Jen n Erica's arm warmers... so apathetic. It's sad.

Well I'm going to maybe go clean. Nighty.

Ta.

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Thatsallshewrote.

we lift our hands and pray over your body but nothing ever happens

I really should get going on my art paper. I wish I worked better under pressure… grrrrr…

Snowing like a banshee outside. Which will prevent me from going out and being awkward with Pete. That and the fact that my paper will probably be nowhere near being done by that time… Oh wow, I wish I could just tell him he makes my life awkward… but I can’t. I am physically unable to do so.

Talked to Ryan last night. The line between Pete land and Ryan land has been breeched. But it worked out well and I don’t feel guilty anymore. Much. I tried to get Ryan’s help with getting myself rid of Pete (I make him sound so terrible. He’s really not. Pete is a truly nice guy but… he’s so… well he’s trying to be more talkative around me, I can tell, but.. I still don’t like him.) and Ryan basically thought I was trying to get out of going to prom, which was the whole reason for even thinking about liking Pete in the first place. Really.

On a lighter note x169374267392….

I’m making another CD on Friday!! I’m super excited about it! There are gonna be some sweet songs on it. Some I’ve never even considered putting on a CD (like “In the Good Old Way.” So old school it’s practically Ye Olde Schoole.) But it’s gonna be A-Bloody-Mazing. 12ish songs instead of just 5. SO sweet. I wanna do a jazz-ish version of Just a Closer Walk with Thee. It’s gonna be such an eclectic CD. Oh man, you do not even know how pumped I am.

Also…

I GOT ACCEPTED TO SOUTHERN!!!!!!! YAAAAYYAYAYAYAYAYYYYAAAAAYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I’m goin’ places shirt, HERE I COME!! With scissors in hand. I think I want to somehow combine the tee shirt I got from Southern (that actually almost fits) with the “I’m going places” shirt that I’ll be getting from Guidance at the earliest possible opportunity. I was thinking about making another shirt, but then I thought it might be even more cool to make a purse of some kind. That way I can have it every day without having to wear one shirt every day. That gets ridiculous. Fast.

Well… I’ve put it off long enough. Time to get back to biznatch.

Big hugs.

Andthatsallshewrote.

for every time I doubted you

I AM SOOO EXCITED RIGHT NOOOOWWWW!!!

I finally got my laptop to go on the internet!!

Yeah, I'm aware this is no great accomplishment, but I am pretty damn happy about it. I've been loading songs and stuff onto it aaallll day. My geek chic is certainly coming out hard core.

But I am major league pissed that Ryan hasn't written me back yet. If he doesn't ever plan on doing it, then I wish he would just say that. I guess I'm just really worried about loosing him (well, it's not really like I ever HAD him per se, but... oh you wouldn't understand). I've just spent too much time thinking about how great it would be if we... *cry*

Watched The Life Aquatic with Pete last night. It was pretty cool, but a little awkward, cuz I didn't really know if I was just supposed to watch the movie, or... do something else. But for crying out loud I really don't even know pete well enough to be like making out with him on the SECOND date. ERHEJKVFNIOJNGDONKLDJG!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SOOOOO AWKWARD!!!!!!!!!

Well now that I'm sufficiently depressed, time to go cheer myself up with more loading on of music. TTFN!

Hugs & Sex (oooohh did I just say that??)

♥ ♥ ♥

we've got nothing to loose except me, this and you

So I reaaaally should be cleaning my room right now… naaaaahh.

I woke up this morning to Mum barging in my room with my cell phone…

“I think you got a text message.”
“….what? Why are you in here?”
“Your phone is making noises.”
“Oh… give it to me…”

I sort of thought that it was one of those junk text messages that I get from time to time from heaven knows where. But turns out Ryan decided to send me a picture of himself. I was actually pretty happy (even though it wasn’t the greatest picture. He looked like he’d just come from a prison camp.) I couldn’t figure out if it was a video or not, but I had it as my background all day. Then I took it off, in case someone found it. Like Sarah. He says he’s gonna call me later.

But GUESS WHAT ELSE???

I got asked out by Pete! We went to A-1 Diner last night for coffee. We were only there an hour, but it was nice. I guess we’re hanging out on Saturday. Probably this time we should go out and do something instead of just sitting in a restaurant. He’s super quiet and I am not the most talkative person ever, so there were a few rough spots, but I managed to get out of them pretty easily. I’m hoping that Saturday goes better.

But the weird thing is that I feel super guilty going with Pete. I really shouldn’t. It’s not like I really have any actual ties to Ryan. Technically, we’re barely friends and… well whatever. But when I got back from the date last night I ended up talking to ryan for an hour. Then when I got off the phone I just thought about how much easier it is to talk to Ryan than pete. But I’ve decided that… well… I’m not going to let it bother me.

And now… cleaning/naptime.

♥ Amanda

with words I thought I'd never speak

Hahahaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh………….oooooohhhhhhhdear.

Well… Ok.

So we’re all over to my house on Saturday and Ryan calls me. (can you spell aakward?)

We’re just randomly talking. (par usual) {about his little excursion to taco bell and my new laptop if you must know} [oh yeah, I got a new laptop. I would be pretty excited if I could get it to go on the internet…] And I guess it was a brilliant idea of Josh’s to listen in on our convo. And nobody tried to stop him. And I knew it the whole time I’m trying to carry on a sane conversation with Ryan. It was really bad. Beyond belief.

So he finally hangs up and I let people know I was mad that they were doing it, and I get hollered at. As IF I’d ever listen in to Sarah and Ryan talking. Of course Sarah brought up how we listened in to Erica. But that was different. That whole conversation was staged.

Then Sarah thinks I’m mad at Josh. Ummm… not really.

But… there’s nothing I can think of to do.

Then after that happened, she left a comment on his myspace telling him that I bitched Josh out. CUUUUUUTTEEE.

I am not going to miss her when she leaves.

Much.

If she wouldn’t bring him up so much, there wouldn’t be such a problem. When he’s not the issue, then everything’s fine. It’s always this way when there’s a guy involved.

If she had told me she liked him in the first place, I wouldn’t have added him as a friend in the first place.

Oh wow, this is SO NOT even worth discussing at this point.

I have homework. And school tomorrow. And hopefully a letter from Ryan waiting…

And that’s all she wrote.

XXXxxxxx*tear*xxxxxxXXX