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Me and ze only two guys in my churh. Matt looks like a geek, Josh looks rather suspicious of me, and I've got my eyes shut, but damn am I H-O-double T.

my lil sis tellin me to go help mum make supper

Meeeee.... in my room... lookin' dreamily up at my ceiling.

and Sarah my bestest friend ever (and Matt giving her bunny ears. What a card he is.) This is possibly THE coolest picture ever taken.

You can check out any time you like but you can never leave

Memorial day weekend is here!!! Yessss! Relief.

Tomorrow, I’m hopefully going to apply to a couple of places to see if I can get a job for the summer before all the good ones are taken. I’m really kind of freaked out. I’m mostly worried that I’ll say something incoherent or something stupid like that. I dunno. My best is all I can do.

This weekend has been pretty good so far. Went shopping today @ Marden’s with mum. It was quite fun actually and I got a ton of clothes. It was fun being with mum too.

I’m allowed to drive people now. It’s pretty exciting. I feel all grown up and shit. S’nice.

I’m really depressed that everyone is leaving. Sarah’s going to college, Josh is going to live with his brother far away somewhere and Matt may possibly be going to Canada. Jen thinks he’s going to dump her soon, cuz I guess they planned on calling it quits when he goes away to school. It makes me sad. The whole thing makes me very sad indeed.

As does the movie Tristan and Isolde. Man, what a downer.

I really want to do some sewing this weekend, but I doubt that will happen with the buttload of homework I have to do tomorrow. It’s basically a hard-knock life for me. Basically.

Mum and I saw a dust tornado today going to Marden’s. It was really creepy, and I kind of felt like I was dreaming it. Maybe…it’s some kind of sign.

Oh, I guess the biggest asshole who ever walked the earth (ie Matt T.) dumped the Jen Baker chick. Allegedly because she wouldn’t have sex with him. He is SUCH a looser. I hope he… I don’t know I just hope something REALLY bad happens to him for what a jerk he’s been. Jerk!

Well, ‘tis late and Lord knows I need my beauty sleep.

That’s all she wrote.

Amanda
*violent kisses*

Don't stop beliveing hold onto that feeling

Hey.

Well not a whole lot is new, just kinda felt like updating.

Still drowning in homework *tears streaming down face*. I keep hoping for things to get better, but they never do. I just keep saying to myself “Next week will be better, just get through till next week.” But it’s like the same.

Hopefully next week WILL be better. Week after that we have a long weekend. Finally. I’m about ready to die.

Matt (f) and Jen were being grosser than normal tonight. Jen had her hand like in matt’s crotch. It’s weird how she’ll be sitting on his lap and he just kinda goes on talking like she’s not even there and she just sits there. I don’t know. It’s bizarre to me, but probably not all that abnormal in reality.

Last Saturday was kind of…erm…interesting. I kinda don’t really want to get into details, just because it’s so… messed up and embarrassingish. I don’t know. I’m just so sick of messing around with guys. They are such a hassle. But I guess it’s what keeps life interesting and full of…excitement?...crap?...fun?.........whatever.

It was kind of weird in Journalism….

Strike is clocking 11 and that means it’s late, and that means if I want any sleep I had better end this…now.

She reached into the desk drawer, hands shaking, heart pounding. She felt the cool metal against her fingertips. Pulling the gun out of the drawer, she stared at it momentarily. The possibilities it held seemed so endless. “Not tonight.” She thought. She knew it would never happen.

And that, my friends, is all she wrote.

Night night.

xxx

I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

Hey hey hey!

Just got in from the chorus slash band concert. That was superrrr. I got one of the solo parts I tried out for so that was pretty exciting, although I sorta screwed up a little. Nobody really noticed luckily for me. I ended up doing the talent show on day of caring and got third place which meant a bit of a shopping spree last Sunday. I got these frikken sweet pants from A&F that were originally somewhere around 60 bucks but I got ‘em for like 12 bucks. Now that’s what I call stickin’ it to the man.

Matt keeps talking to me, which is really annoying. I’m kind of sick of him being around. He keeps asking me if I wanna be in his band and I always say yes, cuz pretty much any exposure I can get is good even if it’s like connected with him (and besides, the other singer in that band is kinda hot, so hanging out w/ him might be cool) I guess Matt’s finally going out with whatsherface, which was kind of a surprise cuz I thought they were already going out. Whatever. I couldn’t give a flying rat’s ass.

I’ve got sooo much shit to make up from being in Florida. GAAAAHHHH!!! I forgot how much makeup work SUCKS. But at least I’m finally getting semi-motivated which is new. But def. good.

Soooooooooooo tirrrrrreeeeddddd.

Mike is being a bitch. I hate him.

Good night.


xxx

But if it all turns out to be only a beautiful dream, let's keep on dreaming

Well hello.

Wow, sooo much has happened since I last wrote.

You remember Matt right? That two-timing sonofa bitch? Yeah him. He was at prom all right. With some other girl.

Yeah, I thought that was REAL cute.

He did come over and talk to me…for like two seconds at prom. I was kind of hoping he’d at least dance w/ me once, but oooh noo.

I haven’t really seen him since that night, which to be honest is FINE with me. Yeah he’s all “Oh we should play music Sunday” and I’m like OK and he never calls (big surprise).

What really pisses me off is that I wouldn’t even have liked him that much if I hadn’t been told he liked me. So basically, this whole freking thing was really stupid. I hate everything.

I’m supposed to sing for this talent show thing we’re having at the school on Friday, but the song I wanna sing I a.) don’t have the words memorized for and b.) don’t have any backup music for. So I’m thinking I may have to back out of this one, which shouldn’t be too hard, because I passed in my paper late, so I’ll just tell Alyce that I can’t do it. And on top of all that, I have this really bad stuffy nose so I’d sound all nasal. Not cool.

Well I guess there really isn’t all that much new going on… oh well.

Really liked Southern. Got the same tour guide that took Sarah and I out to dinner, Jason. He’s nice and really cute in an older guy sorta way. I guess he’s getting married this summer (bummer). Whatev.

Welp it’s late sooo…

The inspector looked up from the crumpled and stained shred of paper into the tear stained face of the frightened mother. “And that’s all she wrote.” He said, voice wavering. The mother turned aside and wept silently into her apron. She knew she would never see her poor troubled daughter again.

XXX