always one foot on the ground

Just a really quickie update coz I’m freakin’ sleepy.

And that’s mostly because I’ve been up talking to Todd until like 12 almost every day this week. It’s bloody amazing.

We talk about everything.

He is adorable.

He’s been sending me text messages at school.

I have yet to speak to him on the phone (tomorrow… aaaaakkk!!!)

He tells me I’m beautiful.

He tells me he thinks about me and forgets I live hundreds of miles away.

He prays for me. And I pray for him.

We had a bible study over AIM!!!

We had a mini argument about Sabbath. It made me scared that he would hate me after. And I think he was afraid of the same thing.

Sometimes I feel like I’m talking to matt when I talk to him, but he is so much less sleazy.

He makes me say things that would normally make me feel ill to say to anyone else. But they just fly out my mouth. And I mean them.

I’m afraid that after we talk on the phone, he won’t talk to me anymore. So afraid.

I’ve managed to keep it from Sarah that we talk a lot. She told me she likes him, but I’m not sure.

He told me how he likes Sarah’s friend Sahale. And then told me he worked up the courage to call her. It ruined my day.

He seemed a little too happy when I told him that Sarah sort of likes him. But I’ve decided not to worry about things running their course until I get down there.

I told him I was afraid I wouldn’t get to see him when I go down in April. He said he’d make sure we saw each other. I died of joy inside.

He called me Amanda Bean tonight. No idea where that came from but it’s the cutest freakin’ thing he’s said yet.

I have to go to bed now. Again, death by sheer joy.

Peace, love and violent affection.