Man I can hardly believe it.
So much has changed... it's been pretty fantastic actually.
Thinking about it now of course, not at the time.
Finally have Ben out of my system I think. Whatever's left is basically just smoldering embers of anger. At myself mostly.
I say that, I don't know how much I actually mean it.
School is swallowing me whole at the moment. 22 credit hours to finish and with God as my witness, I'M GOING TO DO IT!!!
This week has been pure merde. I am so exhausted right now... My own fault though, I keep staying up late to talk to Ehren online. I have GOT to get more sleep, it's really rather ridiculous. I'm hoping next week is more of a success (granted this has been our first full week of the semester, so hopefully I'll adjust soon.
I am doing a wonderful thing. I am doing a wonderful thing. I am doing a wonderful thing.
I've been writing music. Now just need to find a good way to record it and I'll be set. Hah. I really wish my computer came with a microphone. FAIL. Whatever.
Well as we all know, I'm not here to talk about school angst. I'm here coz I have BOY ISSUES!!!
Let the games begin.
Yeah... Some things I've realized (I would get things straightened out senior year. Faaaaail):
1.) It's a lot easier to get boys (at least the ones 'round these parts) to talk to you than I once thought. Really all you have to do is approach them first. I added this guy on Facebook and now we're pretty much Law & Ethics buddies. I asked this other guy on my NYC field trip (SUCH A GOOD TIME!!! Pretty much a mini renaissance for me) to go find food with me and now he's shooting me for a CD album project. Unfortunately, these aren't really guys I'm like SOOOPER interested in, but hey, I've got friends now. Friends who are boys. Woot.
2.) There are parts of life that are def. better without a boyfriend, however, the opposite is also true. GARGABLAAAARG.
3.) I think... even though I have some misgivings about this thought... that I need to not give my heart away so easily. Not that I have or did or anything, but I just... need to keep an eye on that... for sanity's sake. Even after... stuff, I still feel really ready to throw all of myself into someone again. Part of me is glad about that and part of me feels a little afraid
I know God's got a plan for me in the man department. There's a man in the plan... hahahaha.
Well... there better be anyway.
So basically... new boy on the scene...
Yeah, no way you didn't see that coming.
But, as fate would have it, he lives like ten hours away from here.
Friggin' typical, I tell ya.
But it's cool though, we text just about every day (well since Monday) and I mean it's not like groundbreaking stuff, just like "How was your day?" whatever. But it makes me happy. And maybe if I keep up, something cool will happen.
Well, maybe I'll talk about it more later, I need to do work now.
later, chickens.
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