At least for now.
Talked to dude last night and he was all telling me about how he asked some chick for her number so they could go get coffee sometime... What the hell! Who does that? And by that I mean tell me about some other girl?
Well anyway, yeah that ended before it even started.
But I can't feel like that though, because I mean... there was nothing there to begin with. Really.
I was talking to Celeste tonight, and it's always been sort of the plan to go live with her when she goes to college. We'd get an apartment together and she'd go to school and I'd work and we'd just be a happy family etc. etc.
But this really doesn't leave me much room for a boy... I mean it could, but all I feel like I can see is just miles and miles of man-free road straight, dead ahead. And it's friggin' depressing.
Why does it feel like nothing good works out? Blarg.
There are so many little pieces that have to fit together JUUUST right (or at least right enough so that nobody cares about the parts that don't fit) for two people to be together.
I am really not happy today... This has been a really not happy day.
I am going to start exercising as of tomorrow. I have got to boost my morale somehow. AND STOP FUCKING WORRYING ABOUT BOYS. FUCK! It's so stupid!
MY HAPPINESS SHOULD NOT HINGE ON ME FINDING SOMEONE TO MARRY SLASH DATE.
I don't have time for this bullshit.
WOMAN POWER! HUZZAH!
whatever.
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