well I guess one could say I'm on summer break... but I don't. I'm moved into the new apt. It's really nice and I like the people and everything and the cat hasn't been bothering my allergies that much, so at least that end of it's ok.
But... to be completely honest... I hate it here. I miss my family so much and Sarah seems a lot different/annoying and I wanna see Donnie and I've been sick for the past week (I thought I had Swine flu for a while. Turns out it's some kind of sinus infection which I'm hopefully almost over. I'd better be almost over it. I hate NyQuil.) I'm just really worried that home is going to be a major disappointment. We've moved into an "apartment" of sorts attached to nana and papa's garage. It's really tiny and has one window.
otriegtrjegjklfdjgklfdjgiorejgtrijgklfdjidsjfio rar. I just want to run awayway.
ugh I should cheer up. I'm going to Josh's graduation next weekend and Donnie's sister's graduation the next. My aunt graciously paid for me to fly to VA instead of me driving the 8 hours alone. I'm sure hearing that that was my plan was all it took for her. I'm glad I have her watching out for me.
Do you know what I just did though?? I was in a praize band for this really liberal church up the road (well really liberal by Maine standards) It was fun but would have been more fun if I hadn't been coughing up bodyparts through the whole thing. I got to sing a song solo though and was able to hold out for that. So... yay for (sort of) fulfilling my dream of being in a band!!!!..............!!!!!!!!
Work's going okish. I always sort of thought of work more as a function of school and not so much a "job" but now that I'm not only doing veggiemeat but grocery too and working 9-hour days sometimes..... it's def. a job. I mean it's easy enough work but.... again, I hate it here right now.
My dad's been in California for the past week I think? I'm glad he's out there hanging with his cousins, he needs support. If I were him I think I might move out there. But then I imagined the scenario of me going to visit him there with everyone thinking that I'm some crazy bible thumpin'....... person who doesn't love Dad coz I won't renounce religion for him and them just scrutinizing the crap out of me. Not that his family doesn't already do that... hahah. It shouldn't matter either. And it doesn't. And he'd never do that anyway.
I do like california though... sort of.
AAAHHHHH Sarah is kinda getting on my nerves today. She's all talking about some guy who was like playing with her hair or some crap and going on and on like I should be impressed by her prowess with boys or some shit. Uggs I should just shut up about that. Really, it's just the same old story. I hate how it's always so one-uppy with us. I mean, most of the time we're cool but then she gets all pompus like she's better than me or something. I was also kinda put off that she didn't go to my singing thing today for moral support. I know I totally would have gone if she were doing something like that. I guess that's the difference between us.
I just reallyreallyreallyreally want to go home.
Reallyreallyreallyrealllyrealllllyyyyyyyyyyy.
I miss the hell out of donnie. He didn't call last night which is making me kinda sad, but it's ok. I really want to tell him about my plane tickets! He doesn't know yet! eeek! I hope he can pick me up at the airport, that might be kind of an issue.
Whhheeeeelllll, I think I'm going to try to call mum and then take a nap. I was going to go out this afternoon, but... bed is just so tempting.
Later <3
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