it used to be the reason to breathe but now it's choking me up

I hate how I operate.

So I talked to Colby tonight online. Convo was going really slow so I thought I'd bring up... her. I thought I could handle it... I was wrong.

I don't know why I do things like that to myself.

I miss the way things used to be... before they got awkward. I don't know what happened or if it was my fault or what, but it's not the same anymore and it hurts so much.

MANNN!!!


ugghh.


and three cheers for staph infections. NOT!!

xxoo