i know that you love someone, but that someone isn't me

Hello.

Well, it's been an interesting couple of days...weeks.....whatever.

So I'm changing my major to public relations with a MINOR... in Graphic Design. Good move on my part I think. I'm really starting to enjoy my graphic design class... mostly coz I get to be creative in a decidedly artistic way. Hopefully the two things will be a good combo.

I never really talked to any of the professors, but... I figured that whomever I talked to would be pretty biased one way or another, so.... what's the point? Plus Jeremy Moore gave me some packets about different careers which I think is going to be the most unbiased information I can get.

College is going to be a lot more expensive this coming year. Which sucks. Coz I know dad is going to be ripped when he finds out. Plus I feel bad because my GPA is a bit lackluster which is also a bit of an understatement... of the century, but whatever. Yeah. It sucks. I'm getting better at school though I think... I hope... meh.

I hate dissapointing people... especially myself.

Next topic.

I was feeling kind of wierd about the whole Michael thing for a bit. I was kind of worried he was getting a little serious about this whole relationship thing. But, I realized that.... he's really not. So all is good!

I was feeling like maybe he liked me more than I liked him and that generally sucks. But I think I'm getting more comfortable with him, which is really good. I'm hoping that he's getting more relaxed around me too, it seems that way. It's good. I'm happier about it. At least today I am. Who knows about tomorrow.

Ryan keeps promising to hang out with me sometime. I actually got to have what one might call a face-to-face conversation with him the other day, which was really nice. He's fun to talk to. As I've probably mentioned before. Yeah... I have.

lalalalalalalala.

I get to meet both of Michael's parents tomorrow. Joy. Unbound. Hahah I shouldn't be like that, his mom was really nice. I just hope it's not like some kind of interview... "Do you have any plans for deflowring our son? You look like a deviant. You better not be if you know what's good for you..." hahah I don't expect that. I really don't know WHAT to expect. But I guess we're going out to eat or something before vespers. I wonder if Lisa's boyfriend will be involved in this outing too. At least the pressure won't be completely on me. Muahahaha.

Well whatever. I'm good enough for Michael. So far anyway. hahahah.

I feel half empty tonight. Time for bed.