the boy never gets older

Hello

This post is mostly the result of boredom. But that’s cool I guess.

Good day today.

Really good actually.

If I had to pick between the words “sexy” and “comfy” to describe my day, I would have to pick comfy.

Greenlaw moved the tables back into the little clusters they were in before. Which equals more Amanda-Ross eye contact. Which makes me all YAAAY inside. But we are still uncertain as to whether or not Ross is sexually neutral or not. I hope not. I’d sooo much rather go out with Ross than Matt. Just coz I know Ross is a good kid. And I like him muchly. And he’s never treated me like crap. And he’s funny. And he thinks I’m funny too… I think.

If Matt weren’t so freakin’ HOT and good on the guitar and has a hot friend. Then, things would be so much easier.

We may possibly be hanging out this weekend. But I’m really not getting my hopes up. Really not. You don’t. even. know.

Remember how I was talking to that Ryan kid? Ya, well, I told him how Sarah rambles on and on sometimes about things I don’t really care about? She does the same thing to him and it makes him want to slit his wrists TOO!! Oh man! I really thought I was alone.

But back to the Matt thing. You know, I’m beginning to notice (and whether or not I’m way off base is not the issue here) that guys really think I’m hot. Or cute. Or something and they just don’t say anything, so I end up thinking I’m ugly or something. And because I think I’m ugly, I’m ok with going back to hanging out with Matt, who treated me like crap. Sooo, I think that since I’m starting to realize that the world is basically my oyster, I’m less concerned with whether or not Matt likes me.

Ohh geez I am really not used to sounding THAT CONCEITED. Please, please forgive me, but I doubt anyways that many people read this, so I’m not deleting what I just said. It’s a huge boost to my fragile ego.

& <33
Mandy-pandy